Whats life without good people?

boring and empty? I'd think so.
Whats life in a bubble?
boring and empty.
In these past few weeks, i've gotten the chance of a lifetime to travel to Vietnam for the 2010 Miss Vietnam World pageant. Lets say this year, my eyes have continued to open out further and further. It was an honor to be selected to represent the U.S. this year, and i have to admit it was an even bigger honor to meet all of the contestants from all around the world. Of course with everything there was drama and gossip that made the experience drop down a bit but for the most part, i feel like i learned a lot from this trip... this adventure.
This was my 2nd time in Vietnam,i can honestly say my experience was unlike anything i had expected. Yes there were times when i could barely stand anonymous things.. yet every moment was still refreshing. I learned more about myself by really living through things... making mistakes and adjusting myself to be a better person. I'm not perfect, i'm a human being; sometimes i talk a lot or ramble on things i wish i never mentioned, sometimes i'm a bit stubborn... but i'm working on it. Apart from a few of my flaws i discovered something i may possibly want to devote my ultimate life towards... truly making a difference in peoples' lives. Yes everyone says they want to help others but do they really "walk the walk" ?
Some say pageants change people, my first one did. But now i've been exposed to more truths of this world, i've experienced the good and the bad to a point where i feel like i can't do this anymore. I can't be ideal and perfect all the time, sometimes i slouch a little, sometimes i'm a little clumsy. I guess what i'm saying is now.. i'm okay with it. I'm going to take in everything i've learned from my 2nd pageant and re-shape myself, re-shape myself into ...me, an even deeper and more comfortable sense of me. You can do anything you set your mind too, even if your foot becomes swollen like a huge potato.

The point of this post was to just let everything out. I'd be nowhere without the amazing people i've met this year. My life would never be the same without them, thank you. You've helped me open my eyes, and see more of life for what it really is.. beautiful. & even though in some places lurk shadows of negativity.. the sun always comes up the next day, there will always be hope.
Note to myself: Yes you're picky with things, but stop trying to control things in your life that just can't be tamed, stop trying to be perfect because it seems like people will still love you even if you're not perfect. Stop trying to please every single person in your life, its too difficult sometimes, just live life. & never ever stop helping people; always live in the moment.

"It’ll be worth it..

...to be with someone who knows your worth.

But seriously, save your heart for someone who’s worth dying for."

He put a bit smile on my face =)

"Victoria, you are wise years beyond your actual age." -007