watch out! here comes more and more stress

Why does the vietnamese new year celebration have to be on Valentines day this year? and why is it that exact weekend where my boyfriend has to go away on his trip. Timing for things in february just dont make sense. I've learned overtime that you just can't control things, no matter how hard you try... in the end you'd only be doing worse to yourself. Talk about stress though, next week i have my math placement exam to take...which pass/no pass .. will determine whether i get into Berkeley or not, not to mention their lovely 2nd update app. which includes another essay.. all due before january 31st.
Being a princess of any kind isn't easy let me tell you that now. Yes you develop a name for yourself, yes you meet new people, but also.. yes people start to notice you, and start to examine your personal life like microorganisms.... you get fans, you get stalkers, me-not so much thanks to the fact that i have a sweet boyfriend to show in my pictures. ..but its all sadly true. Your personal life kind of has to step down from your spotlight, because more and more new responsibilities start coming at you. Don't get me wrong, i really enjoy these things, and am more than happy to have gotten a chance to well-be doing what i'm doing. =) However, times like right now make everything really tough.. my whole future in school pretty much depends on my last few weeks of january. Things are tough, i feel bad that i can't represent at different community events, but honestly i feel like the stress i'm currently feeling shows through, and i would hate for someone to see that through my smile. Underneath it all, i'd probably be thinking about re-editing my application and resume because its still not adequate >.< I see it in others when i look at them, so i know its true for most people.. that when they have something really important on their mind, it just shows. Hopefully i can get through this month smoothly. Just need to pass my placement exam, get into the new class i need, and turn in my updated application for Cal =) Then i can breathe <3